Damn boy, this is that thing called a "journal" that I do once every, like, 10 months or so.
The last year or so (since I stopped SUPER School Rumble), I have been trying get better at making a worthwhile comic to make, and it's not easy for me. Trying to organize my thoughts definitely helps me get a better idea of what I might want to do for whatever I'm working on, but then when I actually get to making a draft or the final pages, It seems like I go the easier direction and just draw whatever I feel like, having total disregard of what I had just planned. That really annoys me.\
I would have a good idea and actually think of themes and characters that I like and want to use, only to just draw a plethora of fight scenes back to back while trying my hardest to right trite dialogue to explain what's happening in that moment, throwing out all the thought I had put into what I wanted to do.
Why do I do this? Why the hell is it so hard for me to stick to whatever I had going? Why can't I just focus on making a coherent plot with the themes I thought up?
I can DRAW standalone pictures that I feel capture whatever themes or ideas I'm trying to express in that series that I'm thinking of, and even when I jot down some kind of outline of what I want to do for a plot. However, when it comes down to putting whatever plot or themes I had planned to incorporate into my work, I, again, just draw mindless fight scenes that don't do anything to express those themes or even follow a plot. It's just a series of fights that mean nothing.